Certifiable

Certifiable. That is how I would classify myself in my current condition. All the way crazy, as some of my friends might say. I'm pretty sure that it will all turn out fine, as it usually does, but the thing is....I told myself that I would never let this happen again.....after last spring.

Between now and the next ten days, I will have started rehearsals for three musicals. Thoroughly Modern Millie, Godspell and Bare. TMM and Godspell are shows that I'm music directing and I'm onstage for Bare, which is a rare treat for me, as of late. Last spring, I promised myself that I would never do more than two shows at once. That was a result of putting up Light in the Piazza, Edges, Figaro and my senior recital all within seven weeks of each other. Insanity. I still haven't fully recovered emotionally.

And do you want to know the sickest part of all?

I like it. No. I love it. I love being able to create on a daily basis. I love the type of humans that my work allows me to encounter. For example, today I had my first music rehearsal for Bare and it was wonderful. One of the things I missed most about college was the quality of music-making and today's rehearsal certainly reminded me of that. While I am super shy by nature, and it will probably take me a while to get into the groove of things, I get so energized by working with and watching these new colleagues. And holy jeeeeez! They are talented! The first time we sang the opening sequence, full out, was chilling....in a good way! I'm excited to see where this show goes. At this point, it has potential to be spectacular! Keeping my fingers crossed! And practicing my rapping.

Millie and Godspell are getting underway shortly and both promise to be really rewarding productions for different reasons. I will keep you updated on both of those. In addition to all that, I will be traveling across the country to do my final grad school auditions within the next few weeks. NERVOUS. However, it is nice to know that I have a few options. Even within the grad school route....do I go for MT performance? Music Direction? Vocal Ped? Who knows? I guess I'll go for whatever they let me....gah. Keeping my fingers crossed about that one too. I am also waiting to hear the results of my coaching student's college auditions, which actually makes me more nervous than waiting for my own. I currently am working with 14 high school kids who are auditioning at some pretty major schools and we are all waiting with bated breath for the results.

So thats pretty much it for now. Things will continue to snowball for the next couple months and I am currently considering my options for summer, which include staying in the Twin Cities, moving to Iowa, New York, Arizona, Indiana or the UK. I should probably narrow that down sometime soon. But again, its not up to me. Its where the work is. Which can be frustrating, but I'm trying really hard to see it as exciting. So far, I haven't had much luck. Ha.

So I will continue being crazy. Why, you ask? Because the things that make me crazy also remind me that I'm alive. And that's important too.

Find what makes you crazy. Its can be scary, but its worth it.

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